if your relationship is getting worse and you know it becomes unhealthy for you,
have a humble heart and patience to fix it,
or have a courage and integrity to leave it-
or maybe, be strong and live your life in your own world.
the ghosts are singing again, outloud.
it is kind of ironic, they know they’re ghosts, and for some reasons they stay at such forms,
and they keep spreading terrors, hatreds, creating suspicions and distrusts among living people.
they are forever ghosts, longing become the sacred people, white-robed, aiming greater than any saints.
oh,God. how could those ghosts praising You while bathing in blood ?
i don’t want to know the reason why You let them do that, as if ignoring everything.
as if letting people like me endure more, must have unlimited patience, forever silent-
tonight i sleep, tomorrow i might as if forget their songs, but they’re exist and would sing again.
since when the ghosts become a terror in my life ?
apparently since they started to sing heavenly songs but bathed themselves with blood.
since when society becomes such suspicious, I am tired to force myself on guard all the time.
apparently since they listen to the songs sung by the ghosts.
since when i am so afraid loosing you ?
apparently since i know more people and none was as good as you.
however, no matter how loud and long the ghosts singing
my heart keep singing it songs, the chanting long for peace and humanity.
no matter how arrogant, bullshit, a person is, as long as he or she has a capability to prove to many. too bad most of them are useless people.
i need to avoid interacting with such creature.
so some people try to believe death is actually a happy thing as the dead would be reborn in heaven or something better realm
but it is just a new method to ease the left ones’ sadness, lift up their hopes and guide them to move on.
but to me, death is forever a sad thing, whether to be reborn in heaven or hell
but it’s a nature’s way, just like a joy when parents expecting their babies, as well as sadness being separated from loved ones.
happiness, sadness, are nothing.
some hasn’t seen true sadness, they can never be grateful so they kept complaining on life
some who had gone thru true sadness, forever live in happiness by being grateful
and for me, most times, i forget about this, thru my ignorance and foolishness.
don’t want to be like this
it’s not okay, but
there’s no other way
when you believe this is a series of cause and effect.
it’s simply a psychological thing.
you believe if someone betrayed your trusts,
that person is forever untrusted,
since you cannot hate, cannot avoid, keep facing that person everyday,
therefore you become depressed.
i just want to say to you,
our remaining days are shortened, day by day
that person sucks, but why let this matter depressed you, it’s such unfair
say it is karma, say that’s life, I just want you to let it go
try the best to deal, not to confront
you cannot change other person, yet to change yourself might sound hurt your pride
so be it, just deal with all matters in life without depressing yourself
in the end we all will die, so better care yourself more
don’t try to understand why others have certain opinions,
that is just them, theirs to own
everything will be fine, you and me
your forever shadow
love yourself more, because no one would do that better than yourself
what is the meaning of others’ impression, if your life not even depend on it
you don’t harm others, you mind your business, you behave yourself,
for such ordinary persons like you and me, this is more than enough to live this life.