[3 May 2017]:
[3 May 2017]:
i just cannot tolerate stupid people.
to win a debate with stupid people is actually a waste of energy.
okay, that foolish creature might loose to you,
but you got nothing really useful from winning a debate with a sh*t like that.
so, just ignore, avoid, whatever,
let that piece of sh*t rotten by itself.
unless it is unavoidable.
and related to anger management toward such imbeciles,
let the mentally retarded sh*ts making noises themselves,
i just need to calm down a while, plug in my earphone,
listen to favorite songs over and over.
maybe by avoiding anger,
my world could be more better,
just to make sure as long as it is eligible to be hold off.
how come turn into this, this vast distance separated us,
how could i have let it happened until this far ?
how could we hurt each other like this,
do you remember how we’d ever wanted to protect each other?
i wish there is another story of us,
wild years of youth, we broke all the odds,
we took another road, all paths together,
will life would so much easier for us then ?
it’s hard to listen to my own cries,
it’s hard to make the tears stop flowing
i put down your hanged photo, my walls are all clean now
burned all your notes, gifts, belongings, all become dusts
how come there’s no light, the sky is always monochrome since you’re left
i feel want to end this journey soon, this lifetime seems plain and dead
walking down the streets, their laughter, argues, echos til the night falls
so i sing alone, until only illusions of day and night fly in and out.
there are times
i really just want to be alone.
i think…most times.
i often daydreaming
living in a secluded place, remote area,
safe, sound, the air is clean and vegetation is pure.
as if i’m looking at the vast night sky,
no boundaries, infinite darkness
and then, i keep all for myself,
death is like bringing nothing to a great rocky desert of mourning
while alive is like walking under the burning sun of desires.
all for myself,
karma bearer of its own maker,
be happy, you, a free and selfless soul.
“i want to make you happy.”
bullshit. he left me to pursue better education, better career, and better world overseas.
“i also want you to be happy.”
swallowed the bitter pill. he left me because he couldn’t forget his ex.
“you don’t have to keep your troubles inside anymore. share with me”.
who left her childhood sweetheart to marry a rich woman.
then divorced that rich woman because he had an affair with his childhood friend.
then left his childhood friend and tried to get the rich woman back but rejected.
ironically the rich girl is my best friend and somehow approved me to be with him.
Life is weird.
Lets see then.
–taken from Lynn’s love story, 2016.
AS MUCH AS I AM SAD, ANGRY,
AS HIGH AS I AM HAPPY, JOYFUL,
I AM ALWAYS WILLING TO TRADE ALL OF THEM WITH DEATH,
IF ONLY DEATH IS ONLY DEATH, NO HEAVEN, NO HELL, NO GOD.