burning all the love letters he sent to me
reread some, laughable.
long sigh, bittersweet smile.
no more tears left, refuse to think, refuse to feel.
after all these years,
it’s hard to say if to find a new heart again
this drenched one is not that bad
still beating, nothing really broken.
smile, and refuse to think, refuse to feel.
keep repeating this, on and on
til the day this heart flies to the empty sky,
let this faith dispersed in the air, just like him.
borrow me an umbrella
escape the lights,
so my soul can walk comfortably
with her beside me
borrow me a lantern
accompanied by a dim light,
so i can walk thru this dark alley
see our shadows walk together
borrow me a time
once i wasted
under this endless misty rain
see her for the last time
she walk under the moonlight
the frozen breeze hit her bones
but she refuse to say it’s cold
wind blows, tell her most favorite fable
tears falls, rewinding her most remembered words
i can see her buried dreams turn into ashes
as if walking to endless path
against the wind, among the crowd
whispering to the wind the words she haven’t said
wishing us for a better ordinary life.
bend, lead me thru the fire, a painful truth.
somewhere along the way, i was caught up in the long lost memory.
cost too much to be undone, u are the bargaining i wouldn’t touch.
only a light could not heal the deep wound, falling too deep, low.
thanks god, i overheard him.
thanks god, i act as nothing wrong.
thanks god, i detach myself easier.
thanks god, i accept changes.
for years i thought you woudn’t change
rumors said you have changed
i prepared myself for the worse
and now i’m seeing it is starting to go as the rumors say
so i’m seeing myself take a distance away,
beyond my eyes, seeing your diminishing shadow,
my steps lighter, because i know we both will be okay,
love is universal.
how come turn into this, this vast distance separated us,
how could i have let it happened until this far ?
how could we hurt each other like this,
do you remember how we’d ever wanted to protect each other?
i wish there is another story of us,
wild years of youth, we broke all the odds,
we took another road, all paths together,
will life would so much easier for us then ?
even under the same sky,
we were separated by a distance,
this distance, nothing can connect us,
even the wind will never blow through it.
stay the way we are, forever disconnected
i can only imagine the clouds above
are those white feathers of yours
fly high, borderless image, redefining reality.