the fears

i should calm down
but i cannot

dear God,
i’ve seen their true colors
dark and rotten
no more blood drops,
all white as bones

i am afraid,
they will knock my door

dear God,
have mercy on me
don’t say it is only a trial
please say …

You’ll take them away from me
or else, just take me away from them

it doesn’t matter which one

dear God,
i try to hold Your hand
but these fingers frozen
have mercy, on me.